(caution, angry journal)

My dad has been in a very pissy mood the last week. He is yelling constantly and randomly punishing me for nothing. So if Im not on the next few days... or weeks, you know why... dad goes overboard with punishments... I was grounded for over a year once!
Yesterday, he told me I'm not allowed to take food out of the kitchen anymore because he saw ONE ant in the living room! (which I haven't eaten food in for over a month, yet he eats there every day) So he blames me for that... and today he was late on a bill so he has to pay 10 dollars for a late fee... so, he yells at me for everything I am... he says I'm a failure and that my art is crap and a waste of time. He thinks I should get perfect grades and gets pissed when I get below a B+ on anything... While he was yelling at me, he slamed my cell phone on the table and broke it... which he blamed me for and made me pay new one. He also blocked my phone's network so I can't get ringtones, games, or text my friends...
Watching him throw a tantrum today like the pathetic baby he is has finally made me lose all respect for him. Im just sick of him... if not for being scared to go to prison and/or Hell, I would kill him... that is how much I hate his guts.

Normally I don't let things get me upset, but hearing my own father call me a failure to my face while he rips up some of my "useless" artwork has really hurt me...


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